I've been told that I'm a real random person so this blog may in fact prove that to be true.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I have some really amazing friends
We have just added another adventure to that list, the NKOTBSB Greensboro show, and I can not even begin to express how excited I am to not only be able to go to this show but to be going with these girls. If it were not for their pure awesomness I would not be able to go so to be able to go and to go with them is unbelievable and incredible. I am even more grateful because I know that not all of them are fans of BsB or are excited about the combo but they are not being critical of BsB and are tolerating this collabo for my sake (and so they can see their men =)).
I want you girls to know that I appreciate that and am grateful for it. I know not all BH's are willing to 'put up' with BsB so I am happy that I have been blessed with such amazing friends that are willing to tolerate that along with my craziness. Anybody that has seen my craziness before a NKOTB show should only expect it to double with the addition of BsB. I am unbelievably excited! I can't freaking wait! Greensboro here we come!
To all my BH besties: I heart you bunches
To my NYC/99cent dream girls: Thank you, Thank you for taking on another adventure that includes me! I love you all bunches and I am singing the Golden Girls theme song to you all right now. LOL.
To anyone that doesn't know: I Heart Jordan Knight
and To anyone that just happens upon this: Hi! Thanx for reading =)
193 days to go!!!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Then and Now: NKOTBSB
Proof:

While most of my love was always directed at the Backstreet Boys, after that initial introduction to boy bands I was sold and have loved almost every boy band since.
May 17, 1999: it was the day before the release of the Backstreet Boys second (American) album Millennium and I was watching TRL. Most days I only watched the top five because Nsync, Backstreet Boys and Britney Spears were always fighting for the top spot but I watched the entire show this day because there was a lot of promo going on for Millennium. That was when I saw Jordan Knight, it was the first time he told me he could give it to me and I think it may have been my first experience with love at first sight. He was pretty to me!
This immediate infatuation lead me to the internet which in turn lead me to a site that told me all about him being a former member of the New Kids on the Block. That was when I saw him, Mr. Donnie Wahlberg! He had fluffy hair (which we know now that I have a weakness for) a bandana on and a scowl on his face, there happened my second experience with love at first sight. I had to know more about the New Kids on the Block! I downloaded their biggest songs only to learn that I already knew most of them, my Aunt Tonya had had their Hangin Tough cassette tape and I had loved it. My love for NKOTB grew but it was not like my love for Backstreet Boys because I had no one to talk about the New Kids with, and no way to enjoy them outside of the internet (which my access to was limited.) I watched videos and I listened to their songs but it was a different love, it was a "wish I had been around for this cuz it's awesome" kinda love.
In 2008, nearly 9 years later it was confirmed that NKOTB was reuniting. This sent me on a whirlwind ride that I still haven't gotten off of. These past 2 and a half years have proved to be 2 and a half of the most trying years for me personally, and through that I have had both NKOTB and BSB. But I never imagined that I would see NKOTB and BSB together, never fathomed it. Even when I was told hours before it happened, I didn't believe it. Nope it wasn't gonna happen, I believe my exact words were "Danny doesn't even like the Backstreet Boys" there is no way, and then shortly after I was screaming til I had no air because it WAS possible and it was happening before my eyes.
I was there to experience a once in a lifetime event, NKOTB and BSB performing together, it wouldn't happen again right? Wrong! Last week they officially confirmed the rumors that they would tour together. I couldn't be more happy right? Well yes and no. See for me, to have my BSB world and my NKOTB world collide would be absolutely amazing, or so I thought. I am absolutely ecstatic about the NKOTBSB tour, I think it will be nothing short of Epic!! but if I am unable to get a second job, I will not be able to take part in this epicness and that hurts my heart.
Financial issues aside, my NKOTB/BSB combined world is a rare breed. See, a lot of the fans of both groups are not happy about this collaboration, which is still hard for me to understand because if BSB or NKOTB had said they were to tour with Soulja Boy (whom irks me) I would have been just as excited. Now I understand that the ticketing process is what a lot of the uproar is about but if you don't get floor tickets for this concert is it really gonna kill you? If I had to sit in the very last seat in the very last row in the biggest arena in America I would go, I would go and I would enjoy myself. I know that if I am able to attend any of the shows to come I will go and be happy, I just hope that whoever I go with will share my excitement. I love my friends that I have been blessed to meet through NKOTB but I know that they don't share my excitement and I don't want to take away from their NKOTB experience.
Will I be able to go? Will I get a second job? Will tickets go on sale WAY too soon? Will the tour come close enough for me to go? Will I meet BSB? Will my 12 year old self make yet another apperance? Stay tuned to find out lol ;)
Sunday, October 24, 2010
It's time for an update
Ester has sadly gone to the big car lot in the sky :( I shall miss her, I had a lot of good times in Ester and she took me to a lot of great places! But Losing Ester did bring me Hank who is awesome! (although his payment is not).
Right now I am contemplating whether I should attempt to go back to school for my Master's. My job now would allow me some time to work on assignments but I am just unsure if it would be possible financially or if they would even accept me into the program since my grades were less than stellar as an undergraduate. I also contemplated finding a second job but I don't see my schedule allowing that at all. I'm perplexed and I need a solution quick because my student loan payments are no joke.
Friday, July 9, 2010
New York

pic from @barby312
I know that this blog is really late, but I've been trying to figure out how I was gonna put into words what was an incredibly wonderful experience. I haven't figured that out yet because 'incredibly wonderful' still doesn't do the experience justice.
I guess I'll start with us getting to New York. It seemed like the month before the trip was plagued with nothing but obstacles, from a broken foot (how does that happen??), health problems and car problems, to a freaking pilot strike (which I won't comment on cuz I'll get off on an angry tangent). But despite the obstacles and with help from Jess' mom (whom I'm still extremely thankful for) we were able to finally get to New York.
I'll be here for another week if I try to recount everything that happened once we were there. I say that because it was more of the small moments with the awesome people I was there with that made the experience as amazing as it was. Don't get me wrong I LOVE the big moments, like when BSB joined NKOTB on stage (still aren't words to describe that feeling), but I could have gone to New York alone and still enjoyed those moments, the trip would have been mediocre at best without my girls.
The Meet and Greet was AWESOME! I (of course) acted like a complete bumbling crazy fan girl but the guys were amazing as always, Jordan said my name (which added to my craziness) Joe got me love from Danny, who I ended up leaning away from (WTF!?!?) cuz I was busy telling Donnie (again) "I Love Donnie Wahlberg." (Sorry Danny :( I need a do over for that) and even tho I'm next to my Jordan in the first picture I adore our second picture because everyone is smiling and we all look very happy.

(Jess' face in the below picture makes me giggle tho)

The shows themselves were unbelievable!! Especially when Jordan pointed to me while singing "cuz I couldn't stop thinking 'bout you." (I know you love that Jess LOL.) The guys were on point as usual, they made us laugh, they made us cry, we danced (altho I was able to keep my jewelry and panties unlike some ppl *ahem*Jess*ahem*, we sang, we were surprised, we were shocked and we were amazed. We had a Damn good time!
The nights after the shows were spent having a blast terrorizing the front desk people (who I'm sure miss us), eating $50 pizza (at the recommendation of the front desk person), playing with the ridiculous amount of glow sticks we had and being accused of stealing Pooh bear. When we weren't at a show we were introducing Kelly to the song Toasties, walking across the street with Rudy Giuliani, snapping pictures of an out of work Elmo (and then running), being told to enjoy our toilet paper (huh?), meeting a Rockette, trying out the street vendors food, touring NBC studios, forming the newest Pop sensation 99cent Dreams, building Nu'ber Onzblock (99cent Dreams official mascot), meeting people face to face that we'd been following on twitter for over a year, and what was probably my favorite part; meeting awesome Blockheads (including the Fabulous Liz and Andrea!).
We met a lot of really awesome people on that trip and had a lot of really good times, I wouldn't change a minute of anything that happened (with the exception of Erin's broken foot and not having her at our Time Square sing-a-long.) The trip was perfect.
Thank you Erin for always being my ride or die Biotch! An NKOTB adventure is not an NKOTB adventure without you.
Thank you Jess for being my travel buddy. We did it, but I wouldn't have made it without!
Thank you Kelly for putting up with my spastic, crazy I'm a Jordan girl but "I Love Donnie Wahlberg" self.
To my girls that couldn't join us on this adventure, we missed you and I hope you can join me on whatever adventure is next.
Love you girls and can't wait to go on another NKOTB adventure with you!! (Boston anyone??)
Friday, December 25, 2009
I miss her :(
My First Christmas in Heaven
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven’s stars, reflecting on the snow
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can’t compare
with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
But I am not so far away, we really aren’t apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear.
And be glad I’m spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.
I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory of my undying love.
After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do
For I can’t count the blessing or love he has for each of you
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear
Remember, I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.
( by Author Unknown)
Friday, August 21, 2009
Tell Them
I'm told that time will make it better but I can't imagine this feeling ever going away. I still can't believe that this has happened and I still can't believe she's gone. I feel like I could call her now and she would answer the phone w/ her usual "Sustah" cuz that's what she did. Family gatherings will never be as funny, or entertaining, or close to the same ever again. My only question is Why?? Seriously drugs and money?! drugs and money?! It's just not fair.
My grandfather says that there is a reason for this and we can't see it thru the pain right now but something good will come from this, I can't imagine what that could possibly be, but I'll hope that something good does come from it.
I guess if I've learned anything this past week it's to not take ur loved ones for granted cuz they may be gone tomorrow. It wasn't until my grandmother got sick that I even started telling ppl I loved them. But tell them you love them, give them a hug. Tell them often and mean it. And I knew that before hand but I look back and I realize that I did take having her for granted. Don't let a tragedy like this have to teach you the hard way. I regret that the last time I talked to her I don't kno if I told her I loved her or not. Don't have a reason to question something like that, say it everytime, so you'll be sure. I kno that she knows I love her and will always but I do wish that I hadn't taken her presence here for granted.
"Bye Bye"
Mariah Carey
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
[Chorus]
(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
[Chorus]
Friday, August 14, 2009
Untitled
I'll begin by saying that my family is far from conventional but we were close and we love one another to no end. I have 4 aunts, 3 of which I have lived w/ at some point in my childhood. Before I moved in w/ my grandparents, my mother and I lived w/ my oldest aunt and her family for 2 yrs. Her youngest son is 11 months older than me and we were like brother & sister for that time. We shared a room, we watched power rangers before school everyday, we rode the bus together everyday, we played together everyday, we fought just like siblings, we swam together, we were kids together. We were somewhat close until we entered our teens, then we lived in diff. towns and we weren't like siblings anymore, but we were still family.
If I had to describe his mom, my aunt w/ one word it would be: giving. She would do anything and everything for anybody in need, sometimes to a fault. She did so much for me and for my entire family, and she always forgave family, always. No matter what they did (and some members of my family have done some messed up things) she would still say they are family. I love her and I always will.
On Thursday morning I woke up to my youngest aunt calling to tell me that my oldest aunt had been found dead. Disbelief set in and I couldn't believe it was possible, I didn't understand why, I just couldn't comprehend. Once I managed to calm down somewhat I was told that they believed her youngest son was responsible. I felt like the air had been sucked out of my chest I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. That just wasn't right, he couldn't have done this, he wouldn't have done this, they were wrong he couldn't have done it. But in fact he had done it, he was captured and he confessed. I know that the person that pulled that trigger was not the little boy that I played cops and robbers with, I know that the person that did this heinous thing was not the person that I knew without the drugs, I know that but that doesn't make the pain any less. Now I grieve the loss of my aunt, that was taken from this Earth way 2 soon. I want to hate him and feel anger towards him 4 taking someone I love away from me, for causing our family more pain than we could ever imagine. I can't make myself feel those things tho, right now all I feel is hurt, hurt that he did this to her, hurt that this is what drugs brought him 2, hurt that he took her away, hurt that she didn't deserve this, hurt that he did this 2 OUR family, hurt that I still love him, and hurt that I will always love and miss her.
Friday, June 12, 2009
<3 Love <3
I'm sure y'all have seen this by now, but the expression of sheer joy on Joe's face when he jumps on Jon after he sings step 5 is incredible. I didn't think it was possible but it makes me love them even more. Each day I think "man there is no way I could love these guys anymore" and then almost everyday they do something or I see something that makes me love them that much more. I'm gonna run outta love pretty soon LOL. j/k I could never run outta love for these guys. I think that I may love it so much because I caught a glimpse of them having the kind of joy they bring to me daily.
After my Negative Nancy friends tried to prepare me for "the end" I came to accept that even if there was no more New Kids they wouldn't leave us completely between twitter and their solo projects, there would be other opportunities, but now I don't have to settle for that (hopefully). This video makes me incredibly happy. I am trying not to get too excited about this because it's not set in stone yet, but man does it give me hope! 2011!
I Love the New Kids On The Block with all my heart!!!!!! <3 <3 <3
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
Miss my Bishes!!!
I haven't really talked to everybody since being back cuz life is crazy, with tests and work, and trying to figure out my future.
My mother got outta prison week before last and so now it's kind of a waiting game to see if she's gonna stay on the right track or stay on the track to take her right back, although she's no where near me so that doesn't affect me too much, more so school and finances that have me struggling right now.
I've decided that it really isn't going to be possible for me to work and do an internship this summer cuz that would put me at working about 85 hrs. per week for 12 weeks and I just don't think I can do it so I'm going to try to take some classes this summer and do my internship in the fall to try to graduate only a semester behind. Try is the operative word though. It breaks my heart to feel like I didn't accomplish what my grandmother wanted for me, so I get really down when I think about it. But When that happens I try to think about the look on Jordan's face when I told him he made me tingly and I get better for a little while LOL. The simple things that make me smile.
In honor of Jordan stealing my heart:
I love Jordan Knight he makes me tingly, but I still Love Donnie Wahlberg too!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I've Found my Soulmate
He says "oh they're back? Donnie was always my fav. cuz he's bad ass." He not only didn't laugh at my love but he has a favorite, and that favorite is also my Donnie, and he said I was so cute! Could we be more perfect for each other? I think I have really met my soulmate. lol
Okay I'm pretty sure that the girl he usually comes in with is his girlfriend (although I'm hoping it's his sister) so he's not really my soulmate and of course we all know that Donnie really is but I thought it was interesting enough to share LOL.
And since there is a FRIENDS reference in there I will include a clip of one of my favorite scenes from this show ever
here is Joey Could he be wearing anymore clothes?
Friday, March 6, 2009
SET YOUR IPOD OR MP3 PLAYER TO SHUFFLE AND ANSWER THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS IN SOME CASES IT'S WEIRDLY ACCURATE. HAVE FUN!!!!!
How am I feeling today? All-American Girl-Carrie Underwood
Will I get far in life? Put it on my Tab-New Kids On The Block
How do my friends see me? I'm Real-J. Lo
Where will I get Married? Survivor-Destiny's Child
What is my best friend's theme song? My Best Friend-Tim McGraw
What is the story of my life? Better in Time-Leona Lewis
What is/was high school like? Beast of Burden-Rolling Stones
How can I get ahead in life? You Make me Sick-Pink
What is the best thing about me? Officially Over-New Kids On The Block(Not sure how that one fits)
How is today going to be? Stutter-Joe
What is in store for this weekend? This Kiss-Faith Hill
What song describes my parents? I hate everything about you-Three days grace (WOW)
To describe my grandparents? With You-Jessica Simpson
How is my life going? I Wish-R. Kelly
What song will they play at my funeral? Lucky-Britney Spears
How does the world see me? Independent Woman Pt.1-Destiny's Child
Will I have a happy life? Bye, Bye, Bye-Nsync
What do my friends really think of me? Click, Click, Click-New Kids on the Block
Do people secretly lust after me? Play-David Banner
How can I make myself happy? Sugar, Sugar-Baby Bash ft. Frankie J
What should I do with my life? Love Story-Taylor Swift
Will I ever have children? Stupid Girls-Pink
What is some good advice for me? Whatever you like-T.I
Monday, March 2, 2009
Uh Oh Spagetti O's :o
Please feel free to send me plenty of text cuz as u can tell I am a text whore and will freaking miss texting every little thing and we have free incoming so it doesn't cost me anything to receive.
Only 15 Days left yay!!!!!!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Donnie, please forgive me =)
This customer (we'll call him Creepy McCreeperson) comes in and asks for recommendations (common, I don't think anything of it) so I give him some movie recommendations and anything I say is good he picks up, now he has 5 movies in his hand(making his total 11). Okay maybe he just has a lot of free time, then he says something to the effect of maybe u'll watch one with me, So it gets awkward and I have to be nice cuz I'm working, I reply I've seen all those continues to try and flirt w/ me and then Creepy asks me if I'm married or if I have a "friend", since I want to end this awkward situation quickly I say yeah I have a "friend" (even though I know I'm single as ever), he preceeds to ask all about my "friend" and when he asks who my "friend" is cuz he might know him, what name do I say? Jordan! How does that happen? I said Jordan instead of Donnie, I knew I was finding Jordan more and more hot since Charlotte, and was even considering myself a Donnie/Jordan girl but for me to say Jordan first, what has gotten into me? BTW, my coworker who was within hearing range of this whole spectacle found it hilarious, which made it 10 times harder for me to not bust out laughing.
So there was a momentary lapse in my brain but please don't ever forget I LOVE DONNIE WAHLBERG!!! I know Erin likes to question my love for the man so I have to make it clear. =)
"Wake up, Wake up"
Donnie-Do I even need to say it? I will just in case u've forgotten I LOVE Donnie Wahlberg! that smirk, that look, that voice, I could go on for days.
Danny-Holy Hottness Batman!, even hotter than normal if that is at all possible
Jordan-"wake up, wake up" umm hello, where did my panties go?
Jon-not nearly enough of him, but what is there is ubber hott
Joe-between his "we can work it out" and Jordan's "wake up, wake up" I may never find my panties again.
I do have a small complaint with the video....too much time is devoted to the actors, I want a whole 4 mins of our men. lol
Love, Love, Love this video though, can't watch it enough.
Now on to my excitement!
In just 16 days I will be seeing my bishes, and then in 17 days I'll be seeing my mens again. I can't flipping wait!! I don't think Greenville knows what's coming for it.
Now I'm off to have a Jason Statham movie marathon, Transporter 1-3, Italian Job (know I had to have a Wahlberg movie in there) and mayb The Bank Job if I've got time. Never really thought he was hot but his swagger does something to me LOL.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Boys are stupid...throw rocks at them
On much happier notes
*Only 24 days til I see my Donnie!
*2 more of my bishes will be sharing the experience with me! Now if we could just find a way to drag in/sneak in the other 3 it would be even more perfect! lol
*I freaking LOVE Donnie Wahlberg!!!
I think that is all for now and I will leave you with a small confession:
I may Love Jordan Knight as much as I love Donnie Wahlberg! The jury is still out on that one though =)
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Might as well jump on the train before it leaves the station =)
On the iffy side of life: today I went and picked up my cap and gown for my undergrad graduation, which makes me super excited! At the same time it makes me incredibly nervous, I have to pray real hard that I make it through this semester and this summer internship and actually get my degree, and that I find some type of job following that to sustain myself. If you can fit it in say a prayer for me to finish.
On a happy side of life: today NKOTB was on Regis and Kelly live! and they looked awesome, Donnie wrote a new blog which always always makes me smile no matter what he says, they gave a sneak preview of their new music video which I can't wait to see on Monday, and then they were on E! News talking and looking wonderfully amazing. It still amazes me how much I love these 5 men.
On a looking forward to the future note; 24 days from tomorrow I will be seeing my Donnie Wahlberg again and hopefully telling him something more than "I Love Donnie Wahlberg," I will hopefully get a chance to talk to Jordan this time, I'll get to see an amazing show, and I'll be sharing it with 4 of my bishes. Tomorrow morning I will wake up to NKOTB on the Today show and then Monday I will be watching the premiere of the "2 in the morning video" I feel like it's going to be a good couple of days =)
p.s please forgive any grammatical errors or misspellings as I was and often am still, distracted by thoughts of hot guys in my English classes
examples include but are not limited to:








