Tell Them

I'm told that time will make it better but I can't imagine this feeling ever going away. I still can't believe that this has happened and I still can't believe she's gone. I feel like I could call her now and she would answer the phone w/ her usual "Sustah" cuz that's what she did. Family gatherings will never be as funny, or entertaining, or close to the same ever again. My only question is Why?? Seriously drugs and money?! drugs and money?! It's just not fair.
My grandfather says that there is a reason for this and we can't see it thru the pain right now but something good will come from this, I can't imagine what that could possibly be, but I'll hope that something good does come from it.
I guess if I've learned anything this past week it's to not take ur loved ones for granted cuz they may be gone tomorrow. It wasn't until my grandmother got sick that I even started telling ppl I loved them. But tell them you love them, give them a hug. Tell them often and mean it. And I knew that before hand but I look back and I realize that I did take having her for granted. Don't let a tragedy like this have to teach you the hard way. I regret that the last time I talked to her I don't kno if I told her I loved her or not. Don't have a reason to question something like that, say it everytime, so you'll be sure. I kno that she knows I love her and will always but I do wish that I hadn't taken her presence here for granted.

"Bye Bye"
Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]